If only..... I was good at Chemistry.

I already got myself enrolled at the University of Santo Tomas to take BS Physical Therapy....... At first, I thought I made the wrong decision in taking Physical Therapy.... because I heard that most of hospitals only needs one physical therapist....... and that means it's going to be a tough competition by the time I try to get emlpoyed......... I got upset. Sana tinuloy ko nalang yung nursing sa UST.... kasi nakapasa naman ako...... at marami din gusto sana magnursing sa UST.... pasalamat nga ako nakapasa ako....... but wait. What were my reasons why I decided not to take nursing?

1. Too many people are taking nursing;
2. so by the time I graduate, there might no longer be jobs available for nurses...?
3. I don't like seeing blood and I don't like doing dissection(but a little is okay.....)

Then.... I knew that Physical Therapy students do more dissection
and will even dissect a cadaver on our third year. Hay........

??????! why am I discussing 'how confused KATrina is on what course to take'???

uhm because...... uhm because...... because I just wanted to share how I'm not really sure if I like this course I'm taking!!!!

I really wanted to take Pharmacy...... but I don't think I would not make because I'm not that good in Math and Chemistry......

and here comes more complication: University of the Philippines recently called up and told us that they'd be able to take me in as a BS Pharmacy student........ (I passed the UPCAT with a "Degree with available slots" remark.) My mother really wanted me to be able to get in UP. That's because we'd be saving a lot. Oh yes, A LOT. And duh! UP? who wouldn't want to get their college degree at UP? Knowing that it's one of the top schools in the Philippines.

I feel bad that I can't go UP.... since I won't fit for Pharmacy..... Augh. If only I was. Then I won't be worrying about anything now.... like being sure on what course to take.... mom being able to save........

If only..... I was good at Chemistry.

I wish I could.....

hear your voice calling my name once again.....
hold your hands.....
talk to you all day.....
saunter with you.....
watch the stars with you.....
be able to find you again when my Math subject gets tough.....
see you smilimg at me......
be able to rest my head on your shoulders.....
let you see me crying and wait till you wipe my tears.....
feel the warmth of your hug.....
be able to gather courage to tell you how I really feel.....
hear you tell me: "I love you".....



and last,
I wish I could get out of this daydreaming right now.
Because it hurts me. It hurts to know that none of these things, just even one, could come true.....

This is how I sort the boys in my class:

the CONCEITED:

Self-proclaimed "handsome" and think that they're the best pick a girl could have. They constantly have that feeling that a girl is trying to catch their attention and ask them straight in their faces: "Nagpapacute ka ba?". ANNOYING!!! FEELER!!!

the PERVERT:

Oh. You really have to stay away from these kind of guys. When they talk to girls, they'll put their face very close to the girl's face and try to sound very gentle and suave when talking........

the GENIUS:

These guys are really good in Math and Physics....... the "star" of "shoedowns... ;)" The type who deserves to be respected...... and the type who, you should be friendly with..... (in case you don't understand lessons) :D

the SOCIABLE "BOYS?":

Uhm...... I'm close to some boys. And most of them are not "straight"...... Yeah.... I find the gay faction of men more sociable to girls :D

the BF NOMINEE:

This type of boy is very rare. He usually comes from "the GENIUS" group..... This type respects girls and is the real gentleman of the class.... He has a touch of sweetness in his personality and doesn't act aggressive to the girl he likes. :)

He broke the record.

One of my "guy" classmates then broke the record of my first dance. I would now finally won't leave the "who was your first dance?" question on slambooks blank.

For this school year, I won as the Supreme Student Council President. Since our school does not hold JS Proms...... I tried asking the administration to allow us to hold a Student's Night(it's the same with Promenades.... just a little different...). But my request was denied due to some reasons(which I will no longer discuss, because it's along story that starts about five to six years ago....)

So..... our teacher gave us the chance to have a mini Prom and experience the thrill of having a "first dance."

I really didn't realized it at once. If my classmate wouldn't have asked me if "he" was my first dance.... i might have not noticed it at all. I think it's because I don't know why he asked me to dance, knowing that he presently has a girlfriend. And another, there's no kilig feeling at all. It actually felt a bit awkward specially the feeling of his arms on my waist......eeeeeeeeee

Oh yeah, if you're wondering why we got to do these things; we're celebrating Teacher's day on school... and after the program we prepared for our teacher, we had our Valentine Program today since we won't be going to school tomorrow.

And if "you" accidentally stumble on this page,(but I think that's impossible....) thanks for the dance :D i forgot to tell you that a while ago....

People always say "you're beautiful" when you've got that S-line body and perfect face. They always refer to the aesthetic side. So....

"In my opinion, saying 'you are beautiful' to someone who undergone plastic surgery doesn't make sense."

nor I think will that person enjoy the compliment, for she knows, deep in her heart, that it isn't she who is being appreciated but the woman whom she has conjured up in her mind.

let's talk about LOVE

I can't remember how me and my friends got to this topic while talking a while ago........ I've always wondered how you'd be able to know that you're already in love and not just feeling infatuation...... And I really wonder if there's really the someONE that's really meant you and how you and that ONE be able to find each other among the billions of people around the world. If it's true, I guess destiny's just really good in letting hearts find its partner.

do you really believe that there's really ONE destined for you?

A Letter for Christmas

This is a chain mail I received 3 years ago, and I've kept because I've liked it so much. I just wanted to share it also with you:

It's worth reading. I promise.







Dear All,

As you well know, we are getting closer to my birthday. Every year
there is a celebration in my honor and I think that this year the
celebration
will be repeated.

During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, there are
many Radio announcements, TV commercials, and in every part of the world
everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.

It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people
think of me.

As you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago.

At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did
for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the
celebration.

Family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't
know the meaning of the celebration. I remember that last year there was a
great feast in my honor. The dinner table was full of delicious foods,
pastries,fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were
exquisite
and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts.

However, do you want to know something? I was not invited.

I was the guest of honor and they didn't remember to send me an
invitation.

The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside,
they closed the door in my face .. and I wanted to be with them and
share their table.

In truth, that didn't surprise me because in the last few years all
close their doors to me. Since I wasn't invited, I decided to
enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a
corner.

They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling
jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a grand time.

To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white
beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the
sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "Santa Claus, Santa
Claus" as if the party were in his honor!

At midnight all the people began to hug each other; I extended my arms
waiting for someone to hug me and do you know no-one hugged me.

Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one
with great expectation. When all had been opened, I looked to see if,
maybe,
there was one for me. What would you feel if on your birthday everybody
shared gifts and you did not get one?

I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left.

Every year it gets worse. People only remember the gifts, the parties,
to eat and drink, and nobody remembers me.

I would like this Christmas that you allow me to enter into your life.


I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years
ago I came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save
you.

I want to share something with you. As many didn't invite me to their
party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one
has ever imagined, a spectacular party. I'm still making the final
arrangements.

Today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for
you.I want to know if you wish to attend and I will make a reservation
for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book.

Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party.

Those who don't answer the invite, will be left outside. Be prepared
because when all is ready you will be part of my great party.

See you soon. I Love you!

Jesus



Share this message with your loved ones, before Christmas

Mission Failed

I really wanted to wear eyeglasses.... and I finally convinced mom to bring me to the Ophthalmologist (and that was Dr.Benedict Bernal)...... but ironically sad, neither of my eyes has high grades (did I use the right term?) and the doctor said I just needed rest......

Ohw..... I thought I'd be wearing glasses when I go back at school after Christmas break.....


:-->mission failed!<--:

caroling has already ended.....

We already ended caroling last night......... [thanks god!] I had a check-up with an Ophthalmologist and he told me not to stay up late..... he must have really noticed my bags.......

Well..... after caroling we ate dinner at the house of the alumni president...... and had a party after...... we danced (the kind of dance they do in bars....HAHAHAHA) and played parlor games since we were there (i mean because they had young people with them.... hee hee hee) it was really fun. I actually got along with them after few days of being together.....

Doraemon! Doraemon!

I loved doraemon when i was small. No no, i still love it. I still enjoy the series.

When i was young, the first thing I do when I reach home after classes is to turn on the television. The Doraemon series' timeslot that time was at four thirty in the afternoon. We dismiss at school at four, and our house is just a walk away from the school that i go in that makes it possible for me to watch Doraemon.

I really liked his super gadgets... I wished I had one. hee hee

photo from: jamaipanese.com

VALDA mint pastilles

I remember when we stayed at Daddy Rody's(that's grandpa) house....... We used to sneak at his room and steal some Valda.... that was when I had company like ate Abby or kuya..... 'coz I'm afraid to do it alone..... Ate Abby told me that it was for colds..... and I believed her... because whenever I eat some..... it feels cool when I breathe in....... Ohh.... i miss the taste of it....

the candies were like green mushroom roofs covered with sugar........

here's a picture of it:


photo from:
photobucket.com
medias.lemonade.fr

look at the MOON outside....... it's smiling......

seen: night of December 2, 2008

photo from: Sherica

National Career Assessment Examination results

My NCAE results

General Scholastic Aptitude:
Scientific Ability: 97
Reading Comprehension: 96
Verbal Ability: 98
Mathematical Ability: 87
Overall GSA: 97

Technical-Vocational Aptitude:
Clerical Ability: 79
Manipulative Skill: 83
Overall TVA: 86


Non-Verbal Ability: 99
Entrepreneurial Skill: 95

Occupational fields of interest:
Social
Enterprising

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Scientific Ability: This is an assessment of the individual's scientific abilities and skills to adopt scientific methods, procedures and processes constructing knowledge and solving experimental or real-life problems. One who has greater probability to excel in academic programs that work mostly on scientific methodologies. Those with average SA can be successful in the field of chemistry, botany, biology and other courses related to medicine.

Reading Comprehension:This measures the ability to understand what has been stated directly; to analyze, interpret and criticize what has been read; to recognize reasonable application of principles or opinions expressed by the author. A student with high RC has the potential to make sound inferences, syntheses, generalizations, or conclusions on what he/she read. Students who posses the skills will most likely succeed in courses that involve public speaking and even writing such as mass communication, teaching, theology, and law.


Verbal Ability: This subtest measures the assertive ability of a person in view of grammatical rules and logical arrangement of ideas. Individuals with high VA have high sense of analogy; hence, they have potential in mass communication, law teaching, and preaching vocation. Those with average VA can be developed in advertising careers.

Mathematical Ability: This subtest id used to assess quantitative abilities and computational skills, particularly, on working with numbers, perceiving relationship between two quantities and solving word problems. One with high MA has high sense of mathematical calculus, a requisite skill in engineering courses, aeronautics, and marine courses.

Clerical Ability: This is a test of ability and skill to encode data/information and file office records, as well as ability to note details. High CA is the requisite skill for secretarial jobs for these jobs require good manual dexterity; thus individuals with high CA are potential computer operators, encoders, and stenographers.

Manipulative Skills: This subtest measures abilities that require perceptual and visual judgment in determining figures, symbols, patterns, and nature of space as well as skills in mentally manipulating objects and concrete materials. Manipulative skills are required in occupations such as machine technicians, jewelers, watchmakers, engravers,handicraft makers, and the like.

Nonverbal Ability:This tests a person's reasoning ability to identify patterns presented in diagrammatic form. The series of figures presented in each item requires the perception of an operating principle underlying the changes in the figures. In each instance, the examinee must discover the principle's governing change/s of the figures and give evidence of his understanding by indicating the diagram that should logically follow. It tests abilities required in jobs such as engineering, science, architecture, and any other jobs which involve working with diagrammatic and similar visual information.

Entrepreneurial Skill:This a test to assess one's capacity to engage in business undertakings. One with average to high ES has the potential to succeed in activities/jobs that generate income, considering profit business.

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Social Interests: This means that you enjoy activities that assist other people and promote learning and personal development. Examples: ushers/lobby attendants, nurse/caregivers, librarians, teachers, news reporters, translators, advertisers, sales agents/representatives, athletic trainers, law enforcers, judges, counseling psychologists, religious workers/laymen, health educators, business managers, community workers.

Enterprising Interests: This means that you like activities that have something to do with carrying out projects especially business ventures. Examples: retail/sari-sari store, door-to-door sales, buy-and-sell, handicrafts, telemarketing, hairdressing cosmetology, dressmaking/tailoring, agriculture crops, food factory, travel agency, loan service, hotel and restaurant.

a step closer to the dream

I'm now a step closer on learning how to play the violin....... I'll be starting my classes in December...... But I have to keep my word with mom that I'll be the one who's going to pay for the violin which would slash about 4500Php of my savings! and she's just going to pay for the lessons......... Anyways, I really hope that I would really learn, and get to be good at a certain thang. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Aja!

the WASP

I guess I already had trauma because of that wasp to stung me on the head while I was getting "kamias"(it's a green finger shaped, sour tasting fruit...... it's used in Sinigang-that's a native Filipino dish) to sun-dry it so lola could bring them to the states when she gets back. Since then, I panic whenever I hear a buzzing sound. I even shouted when we were having our practice last Friday when I realized that a wasp passed in front of me. I think our teacher got mad a bit about that.........

I saw a wasp today making a hive in our window..... of course the window's screened that made it possible for me to watch it closely....... It's amazing how it builds its hive....... it carries mud, with the size of a pellet (I wonder where it gets wet soil..... or maybe it wets it with its saliva?..... hahaha just guessing!) and shapes it with its snout and hands...... It's a amazing how it could make it a beautiful circle...... it comes back I think every after 15 minutes after it has molded the mud....

Well that doesn't erase my fear about wasps....... I just find it cool that I got the chance to closely see how wasps make their hives... ;)

I remember my younger years.......

We went to a birthday party just few blocks away from our house........ I actually didn't like go out the house because I was really lazy and I wanted to finish my reaction paper at once..... But I was really tired and thought that eating would "recharge" my batteries...... anyway it's just a walk away so I did come with mom....... We ate and the children played "pukpok palayok" (it's the Filipino version of the pinatas) It reminded me of my younger years when I used to attend children parties...... they always had those kind of games....... and I always didn't join those. I was shy when I was young...... I think until now, but it has lessened already ;) I would just stay beside mom watching the children play........ When we used to go somewhere we he had to wait (like for a check up in the hospital) I would just sit and ask mom dozens of times: "Tagal pa?" I just watch other children playing around...... I think I'm just not that kind of person who finds it easy to socialize... speacially to strangers.....

the MOON makes me go wow!

WOW! I think it's the first time I've seen the moon that big! It's thrice as big as it is on ordinary full moons...... no... no... maybe just twice...... maybe I'm just getting too exaggerated....... But it really is big!!! If only mom's digicam's always charged then I could have taken a photo of it........ I wonder what made it look that big...... I'm sure it isn't an eclipse because I've hadn't heard anything from the news that there will be one tonight...... and the moon must have been color red just like my cousins said how it looked like during lunar eclipses..... but it was just yellow........ I think it has something to do with a place where I've seen it...... and I think I've seen it on the west...... because I've read that the moon appears to be bigger from the west..... I normally see the moon full on the side of our house, close to tito's (which I think is the east basing it on the "west thinggy" I've read....) but now it appears on daddy rody's side (my granpa's house...) which is probablt the west.

My bedtime was already moved to 9:30 ever since I started this blog..... And it causes me headaches and dizziness on school........ hahahaha I hope I get adjusted soon.

thanks Gentleman!

So I was walking and I didn't noticed that a motorcycle was heading my way...... I stopped when I saw him to give way, but instead he gestured his hands and let me through.

Aba may gentleman parin pala sa mundo!

I hate my classmates. Not All. They're so............. FAKE. Sherica told me: "You know Kat, hindi ka magsusurvive sa classroom natin kung hindi ka rin makikipagplastikan."

My bestfriend and I are not in good terms right now. I REALLY hope we get to fix this...... We've cleared issues between us several times but there's always times that we get some kind of "separated" from each other..... And I can't understand what it is.

I pray that we get back to how we were before.







And I also pray that I'll survive my everyday cursed life on school.